by Tarryn Fisher
Published July 13th, 2017
“You don’t forgive because they deserve it. Most of the time they don’t. You forgive to keep your heart soft. To move forward without bitterness. Forgiveness is for you.”
When you decide to get into a Tarryn Fisher book you know that you are going to get a non-romantic romance story. Her characters are always messed up when it comes to matters of the heart and you can tell she is writing from her own experience. Her heroines have a lot of baggage (Olivia was just everything) and the heroes are always willing to help them out regardless.
“How often do we lie to ourselves and say we don’t care about something when we do?”
David is a musician and in need of a muse. The art hasn’t been coming easily to him lately but then he comes across Yara and everything starts flowing. Yara is a wanderer. She never stays in any one place for a long time but she always lives a mark in it through the heartbreak she causes. One of them believes in love and the other in heartache but they both agree that pure art can come from the two opposites.
“You young people treat love like it’s an accessory, not a matter of life and death. You’re amused by it, in love with the idea of it. You make all of your songs and books about it, but don’t know how to live it out. Love is not part of something else. It’s the only thing.”
As much as I enjoyed this book, I almost always wanted to smack the heroine right across her face. Yara was too flaky for her age and it didn’t make sense. I get that she had her issues but her attitude didn’t match the issues. Her nomad lifestyle was not something that I could understand. Why was she always running away? And the fact that she found it amusing that she would make people fall for her and then move on to the next place made me crazy. I mean why? All because of mummy issues, really? I did not like Yara at all.
Even Petra, the way she was brought into the story was just meh and I could tell what role she would play in the end. Her character was just meant to be unlikable and that was the only option given to the reader.
“If a man introduces his male friend to his extraordinary new girlfriend, his friend will think—I want a girl like that. If a woman introduces her new boyfriend to her female friend, the friend will not think—I want a man like that, but rather, I want that very man.”
And then there is David. WHY oh WHY did he do that??? I also never liked him (apparently I hated everyone in this book) because he was not even trying to make smart choices. If I go deeper into the reasons he pissed me off, it will be a spoiler filled review. So I’m just going to keep it to myself.
But the ending was good enough even though there was a bit of twist that was too out of nowhere and it ended up being rushed. The whole thing was not dragged out. Things felt a bit rushed but I also did not want to get too much into their life after. I like it when I can build my own little story about how they moved forward with their lives.
That’s the thing with every Tarryn Fisher book I read, my feelings are all over the place and the most dominant one is always anger. I love it! If you are a fan of the author, read this! If you enjoy twisted characters, read this!